Realization

You ever stop and think about how screwed up you are? By you, I mean me, so don't get all defensive, ok? I realized how entirely damaged a was a month or so ago. It was during one of the interminable snows that forced me and one of my coworkers to sleep at the office. He works days and so when he got up at around 3am we'd hang out and talk for a while.

He mentioned that he wanted to write an sports blog. You know, spend some money on it to make it professional and try his luck with it. Maybe let it turn into his real job. That's his dream. Why this is significant is that when he said this I realized that there was no way I could believe that could ever work out. Not even a little bit.

To add to this cynicism, I have a much more reason to believe I could make that work. I mean I got six years of sports writing experience under my belt. I have written sports related articles that I know to be good about a wide variety of topics. Still, it would never even occur to me that I would ever succeed in a venture like that.

Which brings me back to the irrevocable damage my psyche has sustained through my life. No only do I not have anything beside a history of failure in my life, in all areas of my life. I can't even begin to imagine a scenario where anything else is the case. So why even attempt it?

My coworker has a dream. All mine are dead. How do you get them back? I have no idea. I'm broken.

Dogfuckingly nerdy

I'm indulging my nerd tendencies and watching tons of animation lately. I watched Superman/Batman Public Enemies and it was enjoyable, but not great. I also watch Justice League Crisis on Two Earths which I liked a lot. I'm trying to catch up on my DC comic knowledge, since I was a total Marvel nerd as a kid. At the moment I'm watching some episodes of The Tick, which never fails to please.

Speaking of comics I read Kickass, the graphic novel which the upcoming movie is based on. It's pretty damn hardcore and I liked it quite a bit. Hope the movie lives up to it's promise. I'm also anticipating the How to Train Your Dragon, which looks pretty cool.

Yes, I'm in a total state of regression. If you want psychoanalysis I'd say my regular life sucks so much I seek any way to escape from it. And what better way than the kinda stuff that I loved as a kid. But whatever, who wants to hear me whine? Even I'm sick of it. I'm hoping spring brings some respite with the return of greenery and sunshine, but who can say.

I beat Borderlands, which was good. I really enjoyed the post-apocalyptic theme and art style. That said, the ending left me quite cold. Very blah. I've also been playing God of War, the first one and find it quite violent and fun. Looking forward to beating it and moving on to GOW2 (I got the PS3 collection) and perhaps even picking up the third one.

That's all for now. Til the next time I'm bored and decide to spray the internet with nerdery.

Pummel you with a manhole cover

So I'm snowed in again, but at least I'm at home for a change. That's a plus. Went to see Cop Out on Monday and that was not something I can really recommend. Tracy Morgan was funny, but all in all it wasn't great. I also had hot wings, which I now regret for reasons I will not go into, you'll thank me.

I'm watching some It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia and it's hilarious. There is guaranteed pandemonium in every episode. Wonderful.

I am going through Olympic withdrawals now. There's no curling on! Dammit, how am I expected to exist without curling on all night. Also Olympic hockey rocks. Sure the U.S. lost the gold in OT, but at least it was Canadian wunderkind and Pittsburgh Penguin Sidney Crosby who scored the final goal.

Not much else to report, my life continues to be a dull, shell of a real existence. What else would you expect?